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Its been while since I last updated my blog huh! Well as always..I do blogs wen I feel down or alone or happy. Hey,, its just normal..when u feel those ups and downs and u have no one to turn to..u just feel that u need to have some resort to release the stress..

I just have this funny feeling that or I guess its more appropriate to say that when somebody has his own thoughts and u cannot ask or tell anybody u just want to scream and just let your feeling out..well..this would take too much space for a shout out..and its useless specially if there is no one out there who cares what the hell you’ve been talking about..

Right.. I feel down..actually..walang makakahukay..and its been bothering me for almost two long years..now that ive found out the truth..and it is absolutely confirmed..ive been asking myself..why do I have to think of an end point when there were really no end for such a thing…gets mo??? Well I guess not?!?!? Im acting so weird this past few days ..such an act that wen i look into a mirror I see my reflection but I don’t really know who she is.. I know who she WAS..but who she IS is a big query for me…im asking you people..did you ever felt the same way??? Have u been alone lately?? I read a book onetime..that every person needs one hour a day to reflect..as for me..i have the whole day to do it..and guess what..i’ve never felt such relief nor see a light at the end of a tunnel..nor hold on a rope when there is an imaginary one. Why??? Cant even give an answer for myself…maybe u can help and enlighten me.. LOSER??? I am not!!!!..no body is such a loser..only yaya from bubble gang is such a loser…(u know her??)

Anyway..i know that things will end well…( I hope!!!) ..i thank all the people whose been there..the people who trust and always gives me support..(do I need to mention them??) alam nyo kung sino kayo.. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART!!! I WILL NEVER FORGET THE ROLE UVE PLAYED IN MY LIFE!!!I JUST HOPE U’LL NEVER GET TIRED and u’ll keep on playing… as for me..aileen…shuhada!! you’re one hell of a person!!! Taas noo and GOD will definitely do whats best!!!  RIGHT PEOPLE?????

c aileen lang ako…most of my friends would c me for being me..no pretentions..just me.. I noticed dat as i grow old, i need to face the fact that being me is quite hard..coz other people are expecting me to meet their expectations..hey..i’m not aileen if u want me to be wat u expect me to be..i never ask anybody to like me or neither beg dem to accept me for what i am.. im just being me..and i guess ders nothing wrong about dat.. i need not prove anything to anybody and never will i do such action just to pretend that im the person dat u want me to be…

RESPONSIBILITY-Uncle ben even quoted that "with great power comes great responsibility".. i may not have those super power but im cursed with great responsibility.. though i have those..im not scared..i need no super power to accept and do whatever responsibility God has given me..Im strong and I know Im getting stronger each day..coz each day i face new challenges dat makes me a better and tougher person  that i can be…

FEARS- no apprehensions… we need to face the fact that der wil come a time that u must stand for our fears..why worry??? God gave u friends to guide u..and He will never let u into a situation dat u can never handle..That’s the truth.. so be thankful for God has given u troubles…lets just hope dat He doesn’t trust u dat much…

SUCCESS- there is no such thing as a formula for success…but i can give you the formula for failure and that is to try to please everybody… there is no greater success if you spend your life in your own way… and i guess that if u do, u just have to admit that u will never please everyone..but at least u have it your way..u can’t blame no one but u..and spending life your way without regrets is always satisfying…

FRIENDS-the essence of being a true friend does not end on just being with him when u needed him most…it starts on simple things as caring and having dem around when u want to talk on anything under the sun issues and end up skirmishing on that same topic…he holds u,guides u and never lets u go when u are blinded… he even scolds u when u’ve done wrong but nver let u feel alone… FRIEND has its different meaning and significance..it even has its own sense..u will never know until time and odds has tested u..probability has its own way..if tested,chances are u might need to acknowledge that friendship has a great accountability.. or lose one for being a bogus…

Well now i guess its not quite hard to be me after all… im just aileen..nothing to be proud off..not pretentious…never a pompous..im just being me… TAKE IT OT LEAVE IT !!!!!

1. Need to be more conscious of where you are now and where you are headed. Do not assume that ‘keep on keeping on’ is the right strategy

2. It is good to have an end to journey toward…but it is the journey that matters in the end….

3. I believe that before anybody makes the journey to the other side, we have to know on the soul level that we are leaving, whether it’s an accident or illness, and we prepare ourselves to a certain degree that we won’t be there in the future…

As you travel through life.. there are always those times when decisions just have to be made… when the choices are hard, and solutions seem scarce and the rain seems to soak your parade! There are some situations where all you can do is to simply let go.. and move on… gather courage together and choose a direction that carries you toward a new dawn.

So pack up your troubles and take a step forward… the process of change can be tough… but think about all the excitement ahead if you can be stalwart enough! There could be adventures you never imagined just waiting around the next bend… and wishes… and dreams just about to come true in ways you can’t yet comprehend!

Perhaps you’ll find friendships that spring from new interests as you challenge your status quo and learn there are so many options in life, and so many ways you can grow!

Perhaps you’ll go places you never expected… and see things that you’ve never seen or travel to fabulous, faraway worlds and wonderful spots in between!

Perhaps you’ll find warmth and affection and caring- a "somebody special" who’s there to help you stay centered and listen with interest to stories and feelings you share.

Perhaps you’ll find comfort in knowing your friends are supportive of all that you do and believe that whatever decisions you make, they’ll be the right choices for you!

So keep putting one foot in front of the other and taking your life day by day. There’s a brighter tomorrow that’s just down the road. Don’t look back- you’re not going that way!

I remember Daddy’s hands folded silently in prayer,
And reaching out to hold me when I had a nightmare.
You could read quite a story in the callouses and lines.
Years of work and worry had left their mark behind.

  I remember Daddy’s hands,
How they held my Mama tight,
And patted my back for something I’d done right.
There are things I’ve forgotten
that I loved about that man,
But I’ll always remember the love in Daddy’s hands.

Daddy’s hands, were soft and kind when I was crying.
Daddy’s hands, were hard as steel when I’d done wrong.
Daddy’s hands weren’t always gentle,
But I’ve come to understand,
There was always love in Daddy’s hands.

  I remember Daddy’s hands working till they bled,
Sacrificed unselfishly just to keep us all fed.
If I could do things over, I’d live my life again,
And never take for granted the love in Daddy’s hands.